oh my god are you ever in just such a conflicting situation and you are Triggered but it's so specific that literally nobody can help you why isn't there a guidebook on how to handle intense interpersonal familial situations uhhhhhhhhhh uhhhhhhhhhh uuuuuuhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh don't gaslight your kids, lie to everyone about them after they disappear, then ask their friends for help it's really awkward blush emoji4/14/2021
i am no longer suicidal i feel totally rad4/12/2021
im very suicidal and i went to a mental hospital last month and spent my twentieth birthday in there its a weird place :^/ its a bad place for many people. but i kind of miss it because it was kind of like i wasnt alive in there which is what i wanted. i still want to be dead but i cant die because everybody freaked out last time :( all i think about is dying. will somebody please come murder me in my sleep4/7/2021
i purposely made this page impossible to read because i actually don't want anybody to read anyhting i ever write and honestly i would rather people couldn't percieve me at all ever but here sometimes things are orange now now now now now now now :)))))))))))) I Love You. Im Constantly Fighting the compulsion to cut myself off from everything in the entire world wait let me figure out how to make this orange some code overrides the other okay i figured it out i looooooooooooooooooooeve youuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu I WANT TO MAKE A LINKS PAGE oh my god i really want to make a giant naked paper mache man i just think that would be so powerful like just a naked man smiling standingupright i really want this to be real ui think i can do it
i have some stuff going on in my life dont worry about it
I've made some updates to this page to make it easier to read :/ i've also made itt easier to update
doctor says i have 15 days to live. considering that i've been alive for fourteen days, my knee jerk reaction is "well, okay then"
discovered creyola marker today. eternally bound. suppose i can bare the burden of life, my new jaundice
breathing is too hard. im too weak. i can not go on. a few days on this earth and things are bleaker than i ever could have imagined.
why do men roam the earth? take me back to the nothing